The Aftermath

"I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious Ambiguity." - Gilda Radner

and so i thought otherwise..

..Whatever. sometimes when everything you do turns out to be shit, there's still this tiny ray of light inside of you that hopes at the end of the road, a much promising journey awaits you.. a whole lot of crap..

judging from the emoness of the prelude, you can definitely say that bitterness has found its way to me.. again and again and again.. whatever.. isn't it ironic that what you dream the most of is something that would kill the dream itself?

we were super excited to perform in a reputable bar in the South.. to our dismay, we found out for ourselves what empty means.. sure.. it is by law that every band goes through this but i never thought that it would happen to us.. it's something that usually happens to a fellow band or a friend's band.. but not to us.. it made me realize that the little things are those that matter the most.. it was the first time ever that i was onstage and i wanted to run home.. i couldn't wait for it to be over.. i'm super frustrated..

haay.. what was supposedly a kickass event turned out to be the exact opposite.. fate managed to pull a 180 and smacked us in our bottoms..

everyone could agree that's worst gig ever..but for me it was the best because the only person that mattered to me showed up and that was more than enough to fill up those empty spaces.. thanks oline..

jj apostol was shot at 3:52 AM