everyone has an alter ego

along with my strong opinion on hypocrisy that has been extremely evident in today's world, i would like to add a small issue that bothers me so much. you all have online friends right? a handful might have friendster, multiply, myspace, blogspot even. right. try skimming through their profiles and blogs. they're all so dark, suicidal, and cool. now i address this question to you. when you see your friend walking down the street or bumping into him in between classes, what's he like? i can bet a month's worth of allowance he's not what he claims to be. yes. HE'S A POSER. check his blog. you would see different statements, phrases, or whatever such as... "this trigger i shall pull, blowing your mind to pieces";"in your sleep, i will kill you"; "fear me, for i will seek my revenge".. sorry. i can't stand to type more wannabe lines.. who are you kidding,man? why are you trying to be so dark and mysterious? what? you've had problems with your mommy and daddy? you want to tell the whole world about it? the girl of your dreams, you've been stalking can't reciprocate your feelings? Well grow up! these people always tend to exaggerate. for example. a normal non-poser would post: "i felt a little sad this morning when i went to the cake store to buy a blueberry muffin only to find out the last piece was just bought by someone else." the poser that he is, he would probably say.. "the world is against my personal happiness.. as i was in my quest to find something that would bring me momentary joy, it was to my dismay that the tiny ray of hope inside of me was shattered to bits and pieces.. ".. hahaha! i know,right? really annoying.

my message to those who fall under this group of lifeless people: whatever.. go ahead.. try to be someone you're not.. others might be fooled by your "dark and miserable facade".. it's never gonna work with me though.. i can see right through you.. damn posers..

jj apostol was shot at 8:53 PM

sick jansport

Alright. so i've been cleaning my backpack just a few minutes ago, and it just made me realize how much clutter i've been shoving inside of it. really disgusting. there was a used-to-be-pink-but-now-it's-gray-because-of-the-dust sweater (which i use for under layering).. a huge superman sticker, chopsticks, screwdriver, a mix cd (by yours truly), double sided tape, green sand, cutter blades, a pirated dvd, 3 kinds of eraser, an eng bee tin hopia wrapper, guitar cables, clay, a 9-volt battery, guitar tuner, a soundcard, an ink cartridge, socks, and what seems to be a statuette of some sort. what the hell? am i trying to build a time machine? i better have my bag dry cleaned.. if not, i'm guessing it'll be quarantined soon..

jj apostol was shot at 7:20 AM

Let's analyze

Yes. WTF? --- what was probably in our minds right after a surreal moment with Umbridge that left each and everyone of us dumbfounded. haha. what in reality was about 5 minutes of lashing out seemed a lifetime of soul tormenting for us.. in that five minutes, she managed to insult us, our parents, the food, where we come from, our generation, etc.. whatever.. i know my mom and dad do not epitomize perfection in parenthood (and you know i'm very vocal about that.. haha..), but she's in no position to speak ill of them.. even though i was smirking the entire time she went berserk, i can't seem to understand how could anyone say so many hurtful words in 5 minutes?.. i'm trying to analyze the factors that would lead to such a disturbing behavior.. hmmm.. could she be having a bad day? could she be feeling uncomfortable with the pencil skirt and the 4-inchers? should we cut her some slack? NAH! I'VE BEEN HAVING A BAD LIFE! WHERE'S MY SLACK? (ok that was so emo).. i admit we can be pretty rowdy at times, but we were not behaving any differently today compared to our other meetings.. hmmm... what do you think?

props for her excellent acting skills though..

jj apostol was shot at 2:55 AM

Humphrey's illness

Damn. i'm really worried about humphrey. in case you don't know him, Humphrey is a red ibanez grx electric guitar. I think he's giving up on me.. haha.. hell, we've been together for 3 years.. i've been wanting to buy a new guitar so humphrey could retire.. i'm not selling humphrey..i simply can't.. he was a gift to me on my 18th birthday and was one of the best gifts i've ever received.. Who knew i could be so emotional over a guitar? yeah well anyway, i would like to introduce to the world my prospect guitar... GABLE..

an epiphone sg-310 emily the strange electric guitar.. why do i think it's a great guitar? it's and sg, it goes well with the genre of music i love (punk), emily the strange hates conformity, it's gorgeous, it's one of the top ten guitars for girls, and it personifies me.. haay.. i'm still convincing my relatives in the states to buy him for me since it's much cheaper there.. soon Gable! soon..

jj apostol was shot at 5:06 AM

Finally

After a long search of a decent blog skin, i now present you this emo-ish template. I like it and i couldn't care less if you don't.

jj apostol was shot at 3:54 AM

Revert

ok. so creepy. i went to gino's page and we had the exact same layout. i switched back to my punk layout. i'll find another layout when i get back.

jj apostol was shot at 5:28 PM

Breezing through

i'm gonna make this short. i have band practice in an hour and i've to get ready. anyhoo. since i'm not really comfortable posting my innermost thoughts and feelings in multiply, consider this new layout and new post as a blogspot homecoming for me.

i've been really depressed lately. there are certain issues that have been sucking the life out of me. i will further discuss them later when i get back. i just wanted to say "hi! i'm still alive!". later.

jj apostol was shot at 5:17 PM