Dear Michael

DISCLAIMER: When you're listening to Boyz II Men while writing this, it's for certain that your emotions have gotten the best of you..

Hey. here. After a few years, i've managed to have the guts to broadcast your name. MICHAEL. MICHAEL. MICHAEL. yeah. eeww. you have such a common name. what did i ever see in you? These past few months got me thinking. It's really unfair what you're doing to me recently.. what the hell? Out of the blue, you just show up as a friend? I know you well enough to know that you want something. are you trying to make it up to me for giving me the biggest heartache of my life? I don't need a pity awkward relationship with you. I don't need anything from you at all. Dude, seriously.. take a hint. i don't reply to your messages. the only time i replied was when you sent me a birthday message last August.. the day after my birthday.. You still haven't changed. MY birthday is on the 26th, not the 27th ASS! and i'm pretty sure my reply was cold as ice. You know what sucks? i've made a pact with myself to not have anything to do with you in my life. and that just screams "BITTERNESS".. i know you.. you're probably inside your beat up car that smells funky, laughing, believing that YOU ruined my life.. You want people to know that you "broke" me. That's just plain evil, man. But knowing how numb you are, you wouldn't know you're being rude and mean even if it bit you in the ass.. Yes, i admit. i had a dark age after "US".. Arrgh.. there are so many things i would like to say to you.. but i can't... i've been really confused... maybe the reason why i want you out of my life is I do want you in my life. Just like before. minus the drama and the heartache ofcourse.


“The magic of first love is our ignorance that it can ever end” - - VERY TRUE... we always believe that our first love is something that would last forever, and is invincible.. to our dismay, it always ends when you've invested so much in it.. I try not to think that i've wasted so many years on you.. I've learned so much.. the hard way..

jj apostol was shot at 2:15 AM